Human Design Mama Connect
Raising Wolves
It was so fun to create this a few other graphics about riasing wolves. Using my energy in a way that connects to my sacral and touch cognition. It was fun to watch how my skin and sacral responded to images, fonts and layouts.
Using my energy in satisfying ways isn’t something I take for granted anymore. I really see how I have swung from burnout yang to ying (as Jas Nenna refers to in her Counter Culture podcast). I noticed over some amount of time that I had to be okay with using my energy for JOY and when I was in yang burnout I had to take time for REST. I had too much rest, too much mental chatter and too low of a self esteem.
It’s interesting watching the this and the that. The swing from one extreme to the other. From young experiences to reviewing and experiencing them again or in a way to review them. For me I have been reviewing my decisions against my responses with a chance to follow the sacral yes or no.
As a bachelor graduate I applied to jobs. I was most excited about the one in Rochester, MN that offered a mentor teacher to work with and take over the classroom all while getting my Master’s degree as I teach that year. I almost got in and they told me to reapply next year and they’d offer me the position. (They went so far as to get the three parties to agree to add me into the program/extended it to add me/a position.) I understand and giggle now thinking about it. The college & school board approved it. The teacher union did not.
As a generator I had a response for this. I did not wait.
My mind feared waiting and judged those not taking a job in their field. 2008 most did NOT.
I didn’t get the other job, but was offered it after the one applicant took another job.
Felt crappy. It was school I student taught at. I didn’t feel seen or appreciated. It would be a LONG sacral, ego (proving they should have hired me & proving my Spanish teacher I could speak Spanish even if it’s hard for me.) and root dedication.
12.
TWELVE.
t.w.e.l.v.e.
YEARS
That place, people and experience was SO rough on my form.
It also was full of great lessons and amazing people.
I applied to a job and got it this January in Rochester, MN. They asked me if I was still interested in taking this position.
NO.
No repsonse.
No excitement.
Ro rise of energy.
I loved the principals. They accepted and BLESSED me on the position I do say YES to next. That it will be a good fit and they will be lucky to have me.
Gah.
What a healing experience.
Shock.
Gate 51 came in and it shocked ME.
My decision didn’t shock anyone else. It shocked me.
Oh my mind had made plans.
haha
I cried tears of joy to honor my NO. Financially I would have preferred to finance my children’s expansion. Instead I am going to school to learn about and get to the bottom of the financial system in the states.
January 22 - Human Design Rave New Year started a lot new but it wasn’t that job as my mind had decided it would be.
So if you are navigating honoring your authority and parenting I see you. It’s for the wolves. Honoring my children’s authority can only happen as I get more OK with following mine. This. That. Sometimes I rock. Somtimes I get in the way.
I am glad I can say when I know I am going against their authority. Does it help? It’s tricky when we have a penta/family because it is inevitable to go against someone’s authority at some point. Slowly hopefully I can see how we can make up a new way of living as we honor all of ours as much as possible. (Just over here dreaming of “school” in a way that allows me to have alone time, time with my kids and resources to provide for each of us. Honor our strategy & authority, enviroment and determination.)
We will see. Ha.
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